And that SHE was HER

She could have been another person in the world but that her was she

and that she was in reality me I separated the two along time ago I didn't want the

pain that was inflexed on her to affect me, he touched her in ways she would have

never wanted to imagine and he touched her right in between the her knees, the night

time was the scary time a time where day light was the enemy cause if she ever spoke

of what happen there he would indeed hurt me, he was the predator and well she was

the prey the victim he fantasized about when the bitch was away night time he'd

creep and he touched her and she cried and begged him to stop in the back of her

mind she prayed her virginity he never got it was her security and he pride he

stripped away with every touch. The harder the tears rolled down nd the harder she

cried the more he would slap her and beat her with his heart, see his mission was

to make her feel like S*** make her feel that she wasn't worth it when he left he

took some parts of her, id comfort her as I whispered into the back of head

everything will be fine and he's far gone she could of been anybodys daughter but

that daughter was she and that she was her and that her every morning I'd look back

and see ME

....Now I'm letting You Go

I forgive you but It's time I let you go. Sole Fide Alis Volat Propriis

By Faith She Flies With Her Own Wings <3

Dear Past,

See Lately I’ve been on this emotional roller coaster. Some days I can’t figure out whether I’m going up or going down. I t seems to me that you have a lot to do with the way I’m feeling, well I can’t completely blame you for it all, but you’re part of the cause. I tried to let go of you and continue to move on but deep in the cracks of my mind you still seem to be growing strong. You’re attacking the present part of me, and It seems like the old Brittany is begging to get the best of me. I tried to leave her right along where I thought I left you. So as of today we have some addressing to do. I was scared to confront you just because I thought the present would lose, but I’m sick of feeling the way I do.

I haven’t slept good in months and every time I think something’s going good I hear the voices of you grunt. I just want you to know that I truly hate you for doing this to me, you made me feel weak, insecure and worthless and still I don’t know what for. Years and Years I allowed you to beat my self esteem up, call me ugly and made me think that people didn’t give a f---! You told me that I’d never be good enough so now that I’m at rock bottom I’m starting to want to give up. I’ve allowed you to control aspects of my life I felt that I had won the battle of, sneaky little you just couldn’t give up. You taunted my dreams while I was sleeping , when you tried to taunt my awaking moments I said that was enough.

I hate you past and what you stand for and this time your leaving for good I’m making sure you’ll be walking out the front door. You tried sneaking through the back last time and you found a place to hide but this time the yard is clear and you have no places to go. I hate you for the things you did to me, you beat me mental ,physically and emotionally, took everything I stood for and you broke me. Times are changing and so am I so from this day forth them old tricks you pulled won’t fly. Good bye and good riddance today is the day you pack your things and leave for good. Don’t even bother looking back cause I won’t be either. The only thing that was good about you was you helped break me down to nothing and that gave way for me to build me back up into something. I keep telling you I’m destined for greatness and when she does come along trust and believe me I’ll thank you cause you’ll be far gone.
-Brittany Q. Garrett

p.s I hope you now understand that no hard feelings. You just cant be apart of this band or the song I’m writing to my future . Just know you can’t live with me no more and that it’s all for the best.

I am Becoming!

I am Becoming.

I am becoming she. I am becoming the woman that I always dreamt I'd be. May not rich in wealth but i am becoming she that is rich in spirit and health.

I am becoming the she that many never thought I'd be they thought I'd be 16 and pregnant standing in the welfare line to collect my free handout, yup that's exactly how they predicted me. No wonder it took so long for me to lose my virginity. they cursed me into thinking I'd be nothing more than ugly.

I am becoming like how my fairytale in my head i dreamed countless times over and over only sometimes I'd wish i never had to wake up to the reality that all they said I'd grow to be was Cinderella before her fairy god mother.

I am becoming more than what she said she knew for sure I'd be maybe just like my mother in her past days looking for that crack to keep her mind astray from her actual reality. but i guess she woke up cause her reality now is doing everything she can to be better in life that's good cause 10 yrs clean is hard congrats mom, maybe i don't mind being compared to the woman you are cause your strength i admire thee

I am becoming that she that she is that woman that every girl wants to be maybe an Oprah or a condoleezza rice maybe even Tyra with her forehead shinning bright.

But i don't wanna be the she that every other wants to be. I am becoming that she that people look up to and they wanna follow me.

I am becoming the woman that they never imagined i could be and that woman i define today and that young woman is me.

I overcame the lies they told me, the heart they bestowed upon me cause with out their hatred i would never be the woman i am today.

I am becoming the woman I always dreamt i be glad that my dream is becoming reality because i am finally the girl who is the woman she knew she'd always be

New Year = New Change Wrong

So I've heard many people say that "oh the new year is coming and I really am gonna change"
PAUSE

First things first change doesn't have nothing to do with the new year. Change starts when you have relized that you've been doing something wrong or you notice what your doing isn't bringing you no good.

I don't understand why people think of new years as a change when in the current year you should have been doing ya changing.

These Nigga's Ain't Shit or Is It You?

I always seem to hear females walk around talking about these niggas ain't shit!
or/ Im about to be gay cause these nigga's don't do shit for me. ( Pause ) lets think about it.

Like girl are you serious no not all nigga's are the same and no they all aren't a piece of shit.Like Kat Williams said "NOT ALL NIGGA'S AINT SHIT" the nigga's "YOU" mess with ain't shit! lol

I have come to realize that the type of person you are is the type of person you attract! they say "MISERY LOVES COMPANY"

So when your a nasty grump female your going to attract a grumpy ass man and then thats going to be one grumpy ass couple.

I feel like in order to be in a relationship with another human being, you need to understand who you are as a person and what your about. You need to love you before loving another.